How Sound Work found me

I truly believe sound, or vibrational therapy, completely changed my life for the better. I wouldn’t be where I am today if I wouldn’t have stumbled into my very first Alchemy Sound Bath, on the evening of a cold and rainy Libra New Moon in October 2017. But let’s start at the beginning…

I was a very expressive child. Ballet, Roller Skating, Singing, you name it. And I always wanted to play an instrument, but none that I tried learning stuck with me, I dreamed about creating music, having been fascinated by the power of music from an early age on, and of course I somehow ended up in the industry when I was around 18. I was booking diy shows in a small club in town, when I was invited to join my very first tour.

At that time, I was beginning to be deeply fascinated by non-verbal music, soundscapes, rather than actual music, The way it was so free and didn’t constrict me in what to think and feel in the moment I was taking it in, felt so incredibly…freeing. Soothing. I was still looking for my instrument. It was like I could already hear the sound I wanted to create, somewhere out in the aether, but I simply never found the instrument I could create it with.

Simultaneuosly, I had been in therapeutic treatment on and off since the age of 13 due to a PTSD Diagnosis and the many co-morbidities that it brings with it. Being initiated onto this search for a path of healing so early on, has led me to decades of experience through trial and error in numerous healing modalities. I knew and even wrote in my diary back then, that the pain I was experiencing felt like it was more than only my own, and that I was determined to find what will heal me and then share it with the world.

Little did I know back then, how both my search for this primordial sound I could hear and my search for healing, would lead me to one and the same source.

By the time I was 30, I had an endless list of Diagnosis, symptom descriptions, as I would call them, and was still desperately looking for ways to get better. Years of talking therapy and studying Psychoanalysis had given me an incredibly analytical mind, but nothing in me felt better. Understanding and overanalyzing myself didn’t heal me, I was still dis-regulated, emotionally reactive, a walking trigger, so to speak. Somewhere ca 2016, I was researching a paper written by Physicist Nassim Haramein and to this day I can’t put into words what fired in my subconscious, somehow I put it all together. It’s what I call the ‘remembering’. Something in me knew, I had to seek out vibrational forms of therapy.

So I did exactly that, and after visiting many Sound Journeys and Singing Circles we come back to the beginning of the story, to that October night in 2017, where I visited my first Soundbath held with crystalline healing instruments. There it was- that primordial sound I had been looking for my whole life. (Later I learned the Gongs came even closer to that sound I could hear).

What I felt that night in that Soundbath, I had never experienced in my life before. I still remember the new found feeling of deep tranquility I had, feeling deeply in touch with myself, finally getting a break from the hyper-vigilant state I had been in for many years non stop. I started getting treatments regularly and studying with Ewelina Bubanja at Crystalline Sound Institute at the beginning of 2018 as my first teacher in Sound Medicine. I have dedicated the past 6 years to researching and understanding the immense effects vibrational modalities have had on my healing journey and that of others from a scientific point of view. Naturally, I also dove deeply into studies of the nervous system, the effects of trauma on both the brain and the body and how it is connected to both chronic pain and illness.

I have further certified and trained in Integral Soundwork with my Mentor Jens Zygar, who I continiously learn from to this day.